Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in spacefurry's LiveJournal:

Saturday, February 22nd, 2003
2:45 am	too long too long has it been since i've posted t othis. i have one simple question? is Alcoholism genetic? are we to victims of what the fates destiny has handed us? will we forever live in the shadows of our forefathers? our grandfathers? my grandfather was an alcoholic. i've lived every day in fear that that if i let my gaurd down. if i let myself too loose. if i didn't have the strength to push the glass away. if allowed myself to forget who i am. to forget that i'm not my grand father. i tell myself that there are still people that need me. that everthing in my life doesn't suck. that the other shoe isn't going to fall. i can never believe it. i know that no peace can be truly abtained through force. yet i force myself to believe the lies that keep me as sane from day to day. i'm sorry. i broke my promise. even if you don't realise i really made it. i'm sorry. i'll try to be stronger next. i want to believe that good thing happen to good people but it gets so hard to some times. i've upset my mom so much tonite. i hate myself for ruining her nite out. but i know i did. and so i wait. i listen. i watch. i fell it coming. the begining of my end. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, November 15th, 2002
10:14 pm	long hours, short pay 'Homecoming' >p thank gods it's over. i was schedualed to work 11am to 6pm yesterday, but there was a meeting at 8pm i found out. now since it would have taken me a 1/2 hour each way to go home and come back, i said fuck it and had dinner at a near by food place and hung around till 8. the 8pm meeting was for the homecoming parade people, which i was. figured it'd be maybe 1 1/2 - 2 hours and i'd jet. wrong. i was there until about 3am. when i finall got home round 330 i went straight to bed cause i had to be back there by 9am. so i woke at bout 745am to eat and shower before the parade. which didn't actually start till almost noon. our float was number 106 outta 130-somethin. needless to say we didn't get done till amost 4. >p and i still don't know how mush of all that time in the last 2 days i'm gonna get paid for. the parade itself wasn't bad once we finally got movin. i just had to stand there and wave with 2 others, as everyone else walkd along behind. XD i hated the make-up tho. it still hasn't completely come off. >< oh well other then that, all's peachy. still gotta finish catchin up over on the Dream from last 2 days, this could take a while. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: old school - Goerge Thorogood - Bad to the Bone (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 5th, 2002
9:34 pm	nope, can't think of a title well, it's been a few days. don't what this to die already. not much has happened in the last few days. saw 'I Spy' and 'Red Dragon' both were good. of course 'Red Dragon' was better. but 'I Spy' had a few good moments. i have released another Av on the Dream *EFG* other then that there's not much to say. till next time. meow >^_^ Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: nothin rigjht now > (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 30th, 2002
9:29 pm	exception to the rule? why is it that everyone thinks they're the exception to the rule? i work in a movie thearter as i said. and i work the door alot, that is i tear the ickets and tell people where the thearter is. i also have to enforce the 'No outside food or Drink' and "No bags other then purses and daiper bags' policies. everyday it seems i get someone tryin to get past me with a bottle or some guy with a shoulder-bag. err...>< and then when i tell them they can't bring them in the always act surprised. then, they either try the old 'They let me in last time.' or 'They let you over here.' i mean really, i have been to alot of thearters on both coasts. i have NEVER been in a thearter that allowed you to bring in a take out bag from fast food or a big bag of chips. *shakes head* and as for the bags, i love the 'It's too valuable to leave in the car.' line. i just wanna grab them shake them sayin. 'Well then, don't bring it to the thearter you twit.' then last night i got a real dick. as door peson i can let anyone past who doesn't, a) have a ticket b) work there c) have a picture ID and their name on the free admittance list at the door this guy tries to walk right past me like i'm not there and when i stop him he gets indignt and pissy say he works for the company. so i ask him for some ID and he hands me a business card... HELL, anyone can hand me a business card. so i ask him again for a picture ID and he gets even more snotty and walks away sayin i'd feel real stupid in a minute. i almost snapped at him., instead i grabbed a radio to call for a manager, but he happened by at the time and apparently knew the guy. me, i didn't know him from Joe Dirt. Richard (the manager on duty) said i did right and not to worry. i just really hate when people take an attitude with me over stuff i don't have a say in. like the prices of drinks and candy. the people at the registors don't set them. the justy ring it up. i hate when they bitch to me. *sigh* oh well, that's enough rantin for me. gods, i never realised how much i could rant till i started this thing :p Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: 'Bossman' by Lucky Boys Confusion (Comment on this)
Monday, October 28th, 2002
12:56 am	another day, another dollar work was the usually. boring. workin in a thearter ain't all the fun you'd think it be. i did get to see a movie after i got off. saw 'Formula 51' it was pretty good. funny. where else you gonna see Samual L Jackson beat up some punks with a golf club while wearin a kilt? :P seriously, the pics i metioned before are up. really just started playin with Photoshop 5.5 so it's a slow process learnin how to use it without screwin up the pics. but i will finish them. >< in the mean time i'll start on the next couple pics on my 'to do' list. i know this must be boring as hell compared to some other journals, sorry > Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: 'Stash Up' and 'Heaven is a Halfpipe' by OPM (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 24th, 2002
10:31 pm	it's a start well i got two of the pics inked one of Kai and another of Messy with dreads. i finished a rough pencil of Zoe a while back, i've just been reluctant to ink it, afraid i screw it up. >< i finally said ta hell with it. they'll be up as soon as i can get them hosted. as soon as i can finish colorin them those will go up. (that is as soon as i can get the hang of PS5.5) i really need a better homesite then that free geocities shit. >p oh well, 'want in one hand' and all that. Current Mood: pleased Current Music: PTS.OF.ATHRTY - Linkin Park remix by Jay Gordon (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 23rd, 2002
7:54 pm	*insert somethin witty* well i'm happy to say the last two days have been boring. that's better then 'interestin' i guess. i hope to finish a few of the pics tonite. i really need to stop puttin things off. oh well. on a side note: anyone who hasn't seen the ring yet... go. now. must see. very cool. very trippy. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 22nd, 2002
1:38 am	real life sux i never would have imagined that up untill this posting anything in my life would be worth putting to paper as it were. but i would just like to say for the record the real life sux, it's not a perfect world. hard work and dedication don't mean shit. people can spend the whole life workin towards a better life, earning every step they made with blood, sweat and tears. and what do they get for it? the overwhelming possiblity of being torn from everything and everyone the love and care about. i would never insult someone by sayin i know how they feel, becuase i know i never could. sometimes i wish i could share their pain, even take it from them and make their life easier. sometimes i even wish for some kind of pain just to remind myself i'm still alive inside. but in the end i always feel empty and hollow becuase i couldn't do a damn thing to help. people tell me i listen and that it helps but i never feel like i've helped. i still feel useless. ... (Comment on this)
Monday, October 21st, 2002
8:07 pm	in the begining well (that's a deep subject =P) here it is, the beginin of the end. me with a LJ (isn't this one of the seven signs?) what happen today you ask? (bare with me, i know you didn't ;) ) well i worked 13 1/2 hours at the thaerter yesterday (a movie thearter that is) and was off today. got to sleep in. inked a few drawings, i'll color them later. when i do, then i'll post them on the MZDM board. (which i really need to update my art thread >X_X< ) can't really think of anything else to say, so till next time. meow >^_^ (Comment on this)